Stepping out
Soon, I will be stepping out of my comfy box all lined with love and confidence and into a new world that I'm unsure of, and, I am a little worried that the people who think I can—might find out that:
1. I start out as a fake and morph into something real, eventually
a. Because I’m shy and uncertain.
b. Because I want to make good impressions.
c. Because superheroes do it.
2. I’m nicer than I am
a. This means I’m nice, but I’m even nicer later. And…
b. My serious look may confuse you, but it could just be my colon acting up again and making me look too serious.
3. I’m not as calm and collected as everyone claims
a. Have they seen me put together new dining room chairs?
b. Did they see me when my son put his leg through the ceiling?
c. Have they seen me when I get lost on U.S. highways?
4. I’m pretty darn intelligent (if I have to say so myself), but, I can also be as dense as a Missouri forest on humidity.
a. This could mean I’m green, but I’m not.
b. This could mean I’m complicated, and I am.
c. This could mean eventually I'll catch on to the program.
5. I’m scared
a. Of spiders
b. The dark
c. Of spiders in the dark
d. Of change
e. …in that order
Sometimes we have to change jobs, move, face disease, divorce--all the while stepping into unknown territory. Sometimes we make decisions that aren’t right. That’s ok. Sometimes we can make those decisions right again. .
If you have something new to do and feel inadequate keep in mind—you weren’t born prepared to live life, you had to learn.
More later.
1. I start out as a fake and morph into something real, eventually
a. Because I’m shy and uncertain.
b. Because I want to make good impressions.
c. Because superheroes do it.
2. I’m nicer than I am
a. This means I’m nice, but I’m even nicer later. And…
b. My serious look may confuse you, but it could just be my colon acting up again and making me look too serious.
3. I’m not as calm and collected as everyone claims
a. Have they seen me put together new dining room chairs?
b. Did they see me when my son put his leg through the ceiling?
c. Have they seen me when I get lost on U.S. highways?
4. I’m pretty darn intelligent (if I have to say so myself), but, I can also be as dense as a Missouri forest on humidity.
a. This could mean I’m green, but I’m not.
b. This could mean I’m complicated, and I am.
c. This could mean eventually I'll catch on to the program.
5. I’m scared
a. Of spiders
b. The dark
c. Of spiders in the dark
d. Of change
e. …in that order
Sometimes we have to change jobs, move, face disease, divorce--all the while stepping into unknown territory. Sometimes we make decisions that aren’t right. That’s ok. Sometimes we can make those decisions right again. .
If you have something new to do and feel inadequate keep in mind—you weren’t born prepared to live life, you had to learn.
More later.
Comments
Mason
Thoughts in Progress
Can't wait to hear what you are up to. Change is good, my friend :-)
CD
My zany, nutso self takes a certain comfort level to come out to play. It probably serves me well professionally--to not show those things until people know me well enough to know I am still competent, but in terms of making friends, it makes the going slower.
.. rings so true with me .. "I'm pretty darn intelligent (if I have to say so myself), but I can also be as dense as a Missouri forest on humidity" - love it?! Wonderfully well put - boy oh boy .. do I have blank spots & I just cannot get it .. eventually yes!! Thick as two short planks for as long as it takes though ..
Enjoy the process .. it'll be fine!
Cheers - Hilary
God bless and enjoy this day and the excitement of a new adventure!
He will guide through, he wanted you there.
I'm pulling for ya! :)
Jules @ Trying To Get Over The Rainbow
You'll be fine.
And really dig the choices for 'calm & collected.'
Enjoy, you will be a great success.
Lyn
W.I.P. It: A Writer's Journey