Let’s talk commitment.

Lately, as my mind flutters from one thing to another, and I struggle with finishing “things”, I am reminded that commitment may not be one of my strengths.

Here are some of my past commitment issues:

·        Took two years to decide on a dishwasher. (That’s a lot of hand dishwashing.)

·        Took 9 months to call back the replacement window people to schedule a measuring appointment. (I was still deciding.)

·       Been looking for the right dog for years. (Who will take care of it?)

·         Need to open a PayPal account? (Don’t ask me to do it.)

·        Exercise? Forget it! Too much commitment.

 

Instead of committing myself to important things, I’d rather chase rainbows and butterflies and watch flowers grow. I’d rather unleash the story ideas playing in my brain and hopefully write them until “The End”.

In my defense, I did commit to:

·        Graduating college

·        Raising my children without surrendering them for adoption

·        A 20 plus year marriage

·        Attending the same church for forty-five years

·         Working for the same school district for over 23 years (Although at times….)

For my lack of commitment I blame...

1.      Being a Pisces. Here’s the evidence:

The Dreamer-Poet. Psychic and poetic, moody, hypersensitive, impractical, secretive, kind, self-sacrificing, drifting, escapist, compassionate, gentle. Liberal and sensitive, gentle and caring, progressive and kind, persuasive, nature-loving and imaginative, humane.

AND

Uncertain, vague, easygoing, sometimes careless, difficult to understand, impractical…

2. I blame past experiences for influencing future responses.

3. Most of all, I blame fear for my lack of commitment.

For me, commitment exposes right or wrong decisions and often your dreams.

Erma Bombeck once said, “It takes a lot of courage to show your dreams to someone else.” (brainyquote.com)

On another note, I am committed to finishing my newest short story compilation, Body Bags. It’s at 31,000 words and growing, with 13 stories written and more to write.

Is commitment ever an issue for you? Or are you one of those people who can commit to your decision making easily? Do you share your dreams with others or keep them to yourself?