Dear A-Z and CassaFire

Dear A-Z Challenge,

This is a letter is to assure you that all is well with me, but for awhile, I wondered about my mental state since I over think everything.  Once I committed to participating in the A-Z, I went through a few hundred mental processes. The other day, it came to me; I could be going through the 5-stages of menopause grief (Kübler-Ross).  

Now before you say I’ve lost “it” for good, read on. This is how it went down.

After I clicked the linky for the A-Z Challenge, I immediately experienced denial. Even though I willingly signed up, I had to argue with myself, “What did you do?”  and “What? Nothing."

I experienced anger.  I was angry, A-Z, that I let you talk me into committing to 26 days of writing and visiting with others. It sounds innocent, but I ask you, why me? When an answer did not come to me, it sort of made me—angry. So, I may have lashed out at random letters. I mentally ripped up word documents. I might even have stolen candy from babies. But, I’m no longer angry.

A-Z, did you know that I tried to bargain? Well I wanted to bargain with YOU. I thought about calling you to see if I could pull out of the challenge, to see if we could make a deal. Know what? I couldn’t find your phone number. Is it unlisted? I thought about running away, but where could I go that A-Z is not? I mean the alphabet is everywhere.  Then I hit a new low, I felt like if I could just undo what I’d done, I would feel better. So, I tried to unlink from the challenge. That’s a whole other post.

Today, I’m in the acceptance stage. Today, I accept my commitment to you A-Z Challenge with confidence. I know all is good and that I am growing as a writer. I almost enjoy writing the stories that I’ll need. When all is said and done, I will have learned if I want to write, I must write and challenge myself.  No challenge means no growth.

You say there’s one left over? Depression?  I’m staving off depression with a dozen eggs. A dozen eggs (you might be saying)?  Just yesterday, I devoured a dozen chocolate marshmallow eggs straight out of the carton. (Thank you, Easter Bunny.)

A-Z, I need to go for now. For some reason, I have a hankering for alphabet soup. That’s weird, huh? See you soon. April is right around the corner.

Love,
T.J.P.C

P.S. Sign up for the Blogging From A-Z Challenge today here.

A shout out to Alex J Cavanaugh for the release of his newest book CassaFire. Congratulations!  I can wait to read it.  

Hey look at this, his publisher is giving away a huge prize package that you can win in the next two weeks by commenting on his blog. Go to  Alex J. Cavanaugh to enter.  AND...

Go congratulate him and…buy a book.